...trivial..but not so "trivial"..: So I feel.. Hence I write..

...trivial..but not so "trivial"..: So I feel.. Hence I write..

So I feel.. Hence I write..

Please do not go on the title.. i just could not come up with anything..may be because I feel this article of mine isn't complete..and I might come up with a better title for its sequel ;)

So I decided to start ( read : Re-start) writing , I take out something that looks like a pen but turns out to be a pencil and has "My Best Friend" written on it. Too much for an inspiration. Hold on!!! I am not going to write on my best friend ... its "personal" ;)

One thing I like about my way of writing is that I do not use "SMS - FB" lingo , I would want my father to understand everything I write ;)

and I love my handwriting - well...that wasn't required but..this is MY blog..so why not ;)

hhhmmm...what do I write on now?A lot is going in my head and some thoughts are too naughty to pen down ;) ( hence the wink ;)

I have again become a part of OG family , thanx to being married to a fauji but I guess "fauj" had never left me. For me , it had never been JUST my father's profession but a lifestyle in itself. Being always on the move helped me see new places , meet new people, make new friends and miss older ones all the more...sigh..!!

I am back to Lachung and how much I wanted to be :) so lets talk about the "privileged" one - That's me :) Being a fauji's wife has its perks and you are treated like a LADY , something that's missing in corporate world because we are busy trying to be at par with our male counterparts that we forget , we are far better than them ;) ( sexist , am I ?? ;)

We all meet over the meals and currently I am the only lady here so all the officers try their best to include me in their discussions , oh..that's very charming , trust me :) Everybody stands up when I enter and at times I feel I should not sit only and see what happens then ;P

and when they say "Ma'am with your permission...may we play TT?" or "Ma'am May we leave"...tempts me to say "No , you may not" but my better side always wins and the evil leaves with a huff !!!

So how do I pass my time here?? A question I am generally asked. To which I really don't have an answer..my day passes by and I feel I don't waste a single time..let me just give you a peek into my daily routine...

My day starts with a cup of tea served by Avinash ( a luxury!!!) and after that , time starts running...I do everything "SLOWLY , GRADUALLY and EVENTUALLY ;) " which includes setting my room , watching TV , listening to music , going for a walk - uphill and downhill (hope you got the joke) , reading , writing , surfing net , posting FB status msgs , taking naps and the list goes on.. Its ironical..when I was working I would find my routine boring and here , I just don't seem to have time for getting bored :)

So back there in Pune , when I told my friends about my life , few found it such a waste and few yearned for it..guess..sometimes you should let your life take decisions for you and trust me , you'd never regret..

I am living a life I had never wanted but I am glad it chose me :) From Lachung , Avinash will go to someplace in Manipur which proves that even Google doesn't have all the answers!! I would want to be with him whenever , wherever and however possible..poor he ;)

I feel it is rightly said and proven that we are a -close-knit-big-joint family because what WE ( all ) go through can never be understood by others. We celebrate small joys of life , fondly called "fauji ki choti choti khushiyaan ". We take out time for evening games , party now and then and its not because we have a lot of time in our hand , but because we don't know what might happen tomorrow..people may find us "buttoned - up , stiff collored , blindly obedient" but if you have logic and you reason a lot , doubt and fear creeps in and you are no longer fit for this profession..

I really don't know where my thoughts are going..I'm just penning it all down and I am liking the flow :)

P.S - I ran out of paper , to be contd... and also , plz overlook any grammatical error for I asked Avinash to proof read for me , and it just shows how much I trust him ;)

MARRIAGE ... :)

I'm married and that's no secret and I'm happy about it :) hence the smiley...

This post isnt about declaring some facts , I'm writing after a long time and was thinking of writing on general issues but I thought the best way to restart my blogging was to write about the most important decision of my life - getting married...

well..it wasnt easy and no , it isnt easy for anyone ( I think) to not only to commit yourself to THE ONE but also let that person "IN" your life!!! We all are independent beings in some or the other form and by commiting oneself , you share your independence with him / her and this thought or the feeling is WONDERFUL and SCARY at the same time...

Again , I'm not here to write about what "marriage" is all about , I'm here to share with you all this wonderful experience...I've been all on my own from the very begining...travveled a lot...have a lot of friends..have had my share of relationships and finally I decided to share my world with Avinash...

Avinash and I have been grreat friends for a long time before he expressed his feelings for me and without any expectations or answer from me , he continued to be a great friend as ever...it was this comfort zone that we have prompted me take a plunge and I said "yes"...and as they say , rest is history...

Marriage has been a life altering step for both of us...once it was "formalized" , things changed so fast that it was an emotional upheaval for us..he being in Army , there were days when we couldnt talk and it kept on building up..I remember the day when we spoke over the phone and I was so scared about this whole change that I just let out all my insecurities ... thinking of giving it a second thought!!! but ThankGod , Avinash was calm and made me understand that its jouney we both will undertake together...

Friends...its not only the would be brides who get all jittery but even grooms also have their share of insecurities and Avinash made me realise that these emotions are meant to be dealt with..

So finally we embarked on our journey on March '24th..and life has been different for us since then...

I have another family now..I'm a wife , daughter - in - law...and a sister-in-law..after coming to Lachung , I've realised this all the more..I'm an officer's wife so certain things are expected out of me..and the hardest part is behaving "Lady like" ;)

Your expenses - the financial aspect , is equally important and priorities change for sure...minutest of detail needs equal amount of attention from you and you do get judged!!! - now that's the hardest part...!!

I've not been married for long to write a thesis on it...but long enough to feel the changes in me and my life...right from planning a trip to my parents to buying gifts for everyone to throw parties to interacting with relatives has taken a new meaning for me..

There are days when it gets onto me but having Avinash around just brightens up my mood...he is my best friend and my husband too :)

I feel like being with him..taking care of him..doing all cute naughty things...just being myself..cribbing , throwing tantrums and getting pampered by him..even if he's busy , we have our meals together..just the thought that he's around makes me all happy yappy and I know that I made the right decision :)

...trivial..but not so "trivial"..:

"PUNE"...

so now m HOME...finally..n m HOME.. no better way to xpress this..

bloggin after a loooooooong time... so i'm havin trouble in puttin my thoughts together...there are so many things that i want to share...so many things happened in past 18 months..

...hhhmmm...I left Ahmedabad and was in Pune for the last 18 months..working there with Bank of New York and Mellon in operations.. but this one statement does not summarize my stay there...

Pune..I went there for I thought of takin a break n wanted to live on my own..independently..no hostel..no parents..nothing..i gotta job there pretty soon..and then shifted into a flat wid a frend..

and here's from where my journey begins....being on one own isnt easy , especially when u r earnin , u cant luk back at ur parents everytime u need money..u gotta manage ur life financially on ur own..u dont get food served on the table wen u come back from work..n no bed tea either..wen u r not well..u hav to get urself checked..take a rick..find a gud doc n get ur self xamined..take medicines n necessary precautions..search for a gud maid..negotiate wid her...n maintain a diary of all important phone numbers.... I know..all this sounds simple and sumthin we all mus b doin..but the difference for me was that - i dint know d language..d place..i wasnt used to takin care of such minute details and that was d best part...

I liked my job...the work place..office..people and all..one gets used to comfort easily n so did I..since I was with a Canadian process , initially I did night shift and then day shift..it was fun..especially fridays..we cud wear casuals...and we had some fun activity goin on there...was on very gud terms with my team leaders , which was also a cause of discomfort for some ;) ...

we had a guitarist Craig , a grown up kid Sesha , Calm as sea was Sree and Nikhat was thunderous and stormy...Meekha was "lost n found" and Hemant was d local Tom Cruise..Ahrar was my partner in crime and Girish was hardwork personified...Mayukh was a "patient" worker and Abhijit...was d Rahul Dravid of d team..would not talk about higher management..was never in their gud buks .. nor were they in mine ;)

made great frenz at work.. n hangin out wid them was sooooooooo much fun... my professional life in Pune was much better and stable than the previous one...I learnt how to switch off my mind from office stuff the moment I used to step out ... n plus , I had a busy social life that kept my mind at peace..so no work related hassles..also , I gave it back to people instead of feelin bad abt nethin..wud jus blast off..feel gud..n then smile again..!!

I jus loved every bit of my life there...loved shoppin...freakin out..n there were days when I wud jus lie on the couch..watch TV..order pizza..n laze around...mmmmmmm...laziness is truly missed..

and there wud b a month after every few months when I wud get to be wid Avinash which wud make me realise how fast can time fly :( I like d city - Pune.. its not that crowded...young n lively..its known as the city of retired people and also of young minds..so one can clearly feel d pulsatin calmness in the air .. contradictory eh?? and you do not hav to walk too fast to b in sync with others..create your own rhythm n pace ;)

m home..( i know m repeatin this ;) n m lovin bein here... :)

..m no longer with India Today..!!

Yes!!! i mean..hell..no..not DAT Yes!!..
"Yes..I have FINALLY quit my current ( & in a way - 1st job )..."...though I had thought I'd write a lot..about my experience here..n abt d people I worked wid..but surprisingly..m short of words..To sum it..my experience with this organisation has been "GREAT"..it gave me an opportunity to realise dat i can be into marketin..help me meet n connect with sum wonderful people from all walks of life..made me go thru various "ups n downs"..sum "good"..n sum "not so gud" moments..n i feel i hav grown as an individual..by learning sum good things n by unlearning (sum) bad things..annual meet was a new learnin xperience..least political organisation..but nothin of this has been possble without my team members n here i even include Montoo & Pankaj..a small close knit team..its more like a family..where in u hav ur own set of differences overshadowed by a lot many similarities and a common goal:).. At this point of my life..i feel more confident and capable of handlin "varied" situationz..i hav learnt dat consistent performance is more valued than a superb - one time- act!!..realised dat profession needs to b ruled by head but performance by heart..i learnt how to b independent - professionally as well as personally..n trust me..colleagues can b frenz..!!! :)
talkin abt my colleagues..all I can say is dat if / wen given a chance... I'd love to work with them again..for without them i wudnt hav been able to learn new things and unlearn a lot many things..from montoo i learnt.."challengin my thought process and testin my limit " .. Pankaj showed me an "intelligent smarter way of handlin a situation..Rimjhim taught me how to "control my temper" .. n WHAT to "learn from mistakes" from sumesh..n how to laugh till u cry from Mrs.Rao.. :)

Dear frenz..there's a smile on my face wen i luk back at my tenure with IT n more than dat..my association wid u guys..It is my first job and will alwez b close to my heart but it was a wonderful journey wid u guys around..

n here wishin pots of luck to the "new" member..

n yeah guys..do keep in touch :) :)

NO TITLE...SUGGESTONS INVITED :)

It started with writin on how to overcome boredom..”BOREDOME” infact..n the line dat follows was how it was supposed to b..which is d way it is..no changes made though..but then d title wudnt hav been appropriate..n to giv it a suitable title..u need to read it ;) ;)

Infact it cud have been “how to overcome tiredness / depression / stress but then I guess “boredome” comprises of it all..
Cuz if you are buzy , u don’t hav time to feel sad / depressed or realize dat u r stressed out..
So here I am .. to tell my “h’ble readers “ as to how to cross this bridge..well..m myself confused n short of ideas..so texted my frenz n saught their suggestions and the list is pretty much the “xpected” one.. trekkin..raftin…fightin esp with ur boss…thinking of new status msg on social networkin sites…shoppin…eatin..gymin..changin ur job..ur lifestyle..tryin search engines for all pssible weird things..gossipin..bitchin to b more precise ;)..writin..goin thru old pics..makin new planz..callin up old ( long forgotten ;) frenz..callin up on random ( unknown ) numbers..goin thru matrimonial sites..commentin on sum1’s pics / profile..try creatin controversies..esp between a couple..hav sum1’s happiness…flirt wid ur X…or..flirt wid sum1’s gf / bf..sleep..listen to music n search for its lyrics..dance ( well..i lov it J )..spoil sum1’s diary..draw funny sketches..
Aww..m bored..so let me list out things dat I hav hardly or never done but want to..
Watch movie alone or eat out alone n njoy it too
River raftin..i simply looooov water…
Try jumpin..atleast off my bed – height phobia u c..
Overcome my fear of electrical switches – havnt tried overcoming it so far..
Visit Goa – guess dat can happen anytime ;)
Visit South – dunno wen dat wud happen..
Join some NGO – dats bound to happen..
..n again m short of words or things to pen dwn..these are jus my random thoughts..to kill time in a “creative” way..
Hhmm..so how is my life goin…well..it seems to b pretty gud – on the surface..n inside it is a bundle of confusions..but I guess dat keeps me goin..had everythin been so simple n clear for me , I wud hav seriously not njoyed myself at all..i crib a lot..surprisingly..people don’t find me cry baby at all..m a kid..i don’t think I hav grown up..i know I know..each one of us have a kid within us however I feel m way too kiddish..no no..i think m impulsive..yeah..now dats d word I was lukin for..i follow my guts..n intuition..n fall flat..lolz..but still do dat..atleast at d end of d day I feel I have acted according to my own will..n no one to blame for anything..
Hhmm..its been more than an year with my current organisation..Have I changed..??? I guess I have..i’v becum financially more “samajhdaar”..gained a lot of “info” as to how to go about ur job..hav learnt to differentiate between office n personal life..becum more patient..more careful..improved my PR skills..at d same time..i hav realized m made for sumthin more/different or that I need to try sumthin new now..perhaps into content writin..or organisin sum event..dat wud b fun ;)
N hav I changed after my last relationship…AAWW..m not wary of guys..guess need to b wid d “rite” one instead of being wid d “gud” one…hav become patient..very infact..
…so wat else..do I write about..wont talk abt recession..or IPL..or attack in Pakistan – the entire media is doin so for me.. ;)
N moreover I don’t want to b sad by mentionin abt “current affairs”…hhmm..n yeah..dis time..no piece of moral advice for now I feel my readers wud hav had enough of it ;) by d way..have u ever wondered dat we select songs n compile them into a cd but while listenin..we skip most of d songs ( atleast this happens wid me )…
They say..life moves on..
But I wonder “how”..
They suggest “move on”
But I wonder “to where”..
They urge..we need a change..
N I wonder “since when”..
They see..heads held high..
But what about firmly placed heels..
AND..
They say..this shall too pass away..
AND
I believe – not till we want it to..!!!


N yeah..hav a safe n colorful holi… J